Post by vonronge on May 8, 2019 6:59:04 GMT -8
I started listening to Jocko and Echo 2 years ago after an appearance on the Joe Rogan podcast.
I was in a state of constant suicidal ideation. I thought about suicide from the moment I woke up until I was too tired to stay awake at night. This started at puberty, and has been getting worse my whole life (I'm 38 this year).
In september of 2017 I joined a Jiu Jitsu gym in New Brunswick, Canada under some guy named Shane who was a "hick son graceful black belt", whatever that meant. I spent 6 MONTHS working up the nerve. Driving past, ordering a Gi, any reason to put it off.
I was so scared my first day on the mat I was visibly shaking. The guys couldn't have been nicer. A brown belt named Dave was running the class. He was a policeman. He showed me how to do a collar choke, and we started something called a "shark tank"
It was tough, but for the first time in my life there was something louder in my head than the suicidal thoughts. Someone was trying to choke me, and I was trying to choke them back.
After the class I was so tired I lay in my car for hours. I couldn't sit up to drive home. It was the best day of my life.
The next breakthrough came when Joe Rogan interviewed a girl named Mikhaila Peterson. She solved her depression issues by ignoring all the dietary advice in the world and eating meat.
In August 2018 I went carnivore, and I have been depression free ever since. When I cheat it comes back, so I stay on vitamin steak as much as I can.
I never studied as a young man. I graduated with a degree in Chemical Engineering this month.
I have missed a lot of classes since starting Jiu Jitsu because Chemical Engineering is a tough road so I am still a pure as the driven snow white belt, but it doesn't matter. I don't care if I stay a white belt forever. I found a way out of the dark.
I found it because of Jocko's voice. I'm saving up for the next camp in in Maine, maybe I'll see him there.
I was in a state of constant suicidal ideation. I thought about suicide from the moment I woke up until I was too tired to stay awake at night. This started at puberty, and has been getting worse my whole life (I'm 38 this year).
In september of 2017 I joined a Jiu Jitsu gym in New Brunswick, Canada under some guy named Shane who was a "hick son graceful black belt", whatever that meant. I spent 6 MONTHS working up the nerve. Driving past, ordering a Gi, any reason to put it off.
I was so scared my first day on the mat I was visibly shaking. The guys couldn't have been nicer. A brown belt named Dave was running the class. He was a policeman. He showed me how to do a collar choke, and we started something called a "shark tank"
It was tough, but for the first time in my life there was something louder in my head than the suicidal thoughts. Someone was trying to choke me, and I was trying to choke them back.
After the class I was so tired I lay in my car for hours. I couldn't sit up to drive home. It was the best day of my life.
The next breakthrough came when Joe Rogan interviewed a girl named Mikhaila Peterson. She solved her depression issues by ignoring all the dietary advice in the world and eating meat.
In August 2018 I went carnivore, and I have been depression free ever since. When I cheat it comes back, so I stay on vitamin steak as much as I can.
I never studied as a young man. I graduated with a degree in Chemical Engineering this month.
I have missed a lot of classes since starting Jiu Jitsu because Chemical Engineering is a tough road so I am still a pure as the driven snow white belt, but it doesn't matter. I don't care if I stay a white belt forever. I found a way out of the dark.
I found it because of Jocko's voice. I'm saving up for the next camp in in Maine, maybe I'll see him there.
